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I balance the knife in my hand,
feeling the weight, gripping it tight.
Unworthy of life, unworthy of love:
is it worth continuing the fight?
Everything I think I know
is proven to be a lie.
I cut my finger on the edge;
with one more cut, I can die.
My life is unnatural, a deception,
and a farce worthy of satire.
I feel that my deeds will go unnoticed
in the long run when I retire.
I have left no lasting impression
on anyone who knows who I am.
I will leave as I came in to life:
slaughter given to a lamb.
A mess of red will be all that's left.
The air will escape my lungs.
I may smile the way my grandfather did.
I may be nothing more than a ladder's rung.
Once I'm gone, people won't have to care
or worry or fret about me anymore.
They won't have to think about me as good,
as bad, as a person, as a whore.
Do I die for the betterment of the world?
Do I die for selfish reasons unknown?
Do I take my life to fertilize a doomed planet,
which will become desolate and overgrown?
Whatever my reasons, the only thing I know
is that I will take some time before I go.
There are things I should do so I can grow.
If I can't do more, I shall feed the crows.
My life is virtually forfeit by now.
I have nothing to show the world.
I have no gains, I have only losses.
My reality is too heavily swirled.
My dreams are plagued by turbulence.
Even my mind foresees my end.
I hope that reincarnation is a lie,
or else I'll have to live through this again.
It's typical of this modern age
to discredit those unworthy of living.
People still say I'm good to others;
of me, they are endlessly forgiving.
They think they identify with my agony.
They believe that they can help.
Too bad it's too late; the knife crosses my throat.
My breath escapes. I can't even yelp.
The years flash before my eyes.
I'm reminded of my doomed life.
I do smile as I fade into darkness.
I thank whatever's holy for this knife.
feeling the weight, gripping it tight.
Unworthy of life, unworthy of love:
is it worth continuing the fight?
Everything I think I know
is proven to be a lie.
I cut my finger on the edge;
with one more cut, I can die.
My life is unnatural, a deception,
and a farce worthy of satire.
I feel that my deeds will go unnoticed
in the long run when I retire.
I have left no lasting impression
on anyone who knows who I am.
I will leave as I came in to life:
slaughter given to a lamb.
A mess of red will be all that's left.
The air will escape my lungs.
I may smile the way my grandfather did.
I may be nothing more than a ladder's rung.
Once I'm gone, people won't have to care
or worry or fret about me anymore.
They won't have to think about me as good,
as bad, as a person, as a whore.
Do I die for the betterment of the world?
Do I die for selfish reasons unknown?
Do I take my life to fertilize a doomed planet,
which will become desolate and overgrown?
Whatever my reasons, the only thing I know
is that I will take some time before I go.
There are things I should do so I can grow.
If I can't do more, I shall feed the crows.
My life is virtually forfeit by now.
I have nothing to show the world.
I have no gains, I have only losses.
My reality is too heavily swirled.
My dreams are plagued by turbulence.
Even my mind foresees my end.
I hope that reincarnation is a lie,
or else I'll have to live through this again.
It's typical of this modern age
to discredit those unworthy of living.
People still say I'm good to others;
of me, they are endlessly forgiving.
They think they identify with my agony.
They believe that they can help.
Too bad it's too late; the knife crosses my throat.
My breath escapes. I can't even yelp.
The years flash before my eyes.
I'm reminded of my doomed life.
I do smile as I fade into darkness.
I thank whatever's holy for this knife.
Literature
What I gave you
I unfairly gave you,
Many wonders this world doesn't own
Many pipe dreams I painted for you
The rainbow butterfly of my love
Gentle treasures buried in my very soul
The phial of my affection...
...That you drank in one go
Drying me to my last heartbeat.
You gave me ashes back
Sealed in a mocking funeral urn.
Even bullets couldn't wound me
As much as your sadistic smile.
Despite leaving me all alone, again
I still forgive you. I still believe in you.
On the gloomy road
And I walk, and I cry, and I feel
A chill of loneliness.
Literature
fabled life
i.
she talks through her wrinkles,
'i have no desire for food', she says.
i take her plate to the kitchen
noticing how the beetroot shavings bled into the skin of the chicken and brown rice.
it was blood, skin, and bone,
and the rice was a million starlike cells floating between.
this reminds me of my anatomy textbook:
we've been learning what's beneath our skin,
we learned that all cells divide. some cells often don't stop dividing.
other cells divide and stop when they should...
but not my grandmother's.
starlike, they explode, they shatter, they consume
they divide.
ii.
i want to be mad at my grandmother's cells,
but what would that do?
i
Literature
five.
this time i'll
let you
have
the last
word.
[i will leave with the final blow .]
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Still like this poem.
Still think the same about it.
But now I can give a rating on how much I like it...ain't that jolly.
So anyway, I just found out I need to fill a hundred word quota...
Boy did not see that coming.
So what else can I say about this piece.
oh right, I never got the chance to say why I liked those two lines so much.
"I hope that reincarnation is a lie , or else I'll have to live through this again."
Is a line that really shows the desperation behind this poem.
And
"Do I take my life to fertilize a doomed planet,
which will become desolate and overgrown."
That is the line that stomped the originality factor in.
That also showed that we have a connection. (mainly in the people are not worthy of a great planet like earth, if we leave it in the hands of these losers and stupid sheep, then the end will shortly be near, category. That is not literally what you can take from those lines, but I like to think a little to far outside the box sometimes.)